Amanda Holden shares tragic memory of saying farewell to stillborn son

AMANDA HOLDEN has opened up about her ‘out-of-body experience’ after giving birth to her stillborn son.

Speaking in a programme honouring the NHS, the Britain’s Got Talent judge described hearing ‘this woman screaming and screaming’ — before she gradually realised it was actually her.

‘It was the most surreal, out-of-body experience and I was actually calling my daughter’s name because I was just terrified about what to tell Lexi at the time,’ the 47-year-old mother of two recalls.

And reflecting on the moment she last held her son in her arms, Amanda was overcome with emotion, saying: ‘He looked so normal and so peaceful. I held him in my arms and I said goodbye, basically.’

The BGT judge shared her devastating experience as part of an ITV show titled The NHS Saved My Life — and has nothing but praise for the way hospital staff cared for her.

‘I couldn’t have done it without the incredible team around us,’ she said. ‘My husband was so strong and so amazing but they got him through it too.’

The NHS Saved My Life airs on ITV tonight at 7.30pm

Author: Anna Thomson